Since my BC (big chop) I have gotten so many questions about why I cut all my hair off. Now, most of these questions come from work where I am one of 3 black teachers in the building. So, I know that I am confusing my coworkers with curly hair growing out of my head. I actually have had several people ask me why I am perming my hair. I have learned to not look at them with a puzzled look on my face. They just believed that I had naturally straight hair and now they are wondering why I now have curly hair.
Well, to begin with my last relaxer in March 2011 left a very bad and rather large burn on the back of my head. I also had a lot of hair loss! I mean the kind of hair loss where you run your fingers through your hair and large amounts of hair are now threaded through your fingers. I kinda freaked out! I had my husband inspect my hair to see if I had any bald spots. This was very scary!
From that day on I decided that I was NOT going to relax my hair again. Now, I hadn't decided to go natural quite yet, but I was NEVER going to relax my hair again!
So, I started doing some research. I looked at braids (which I wore when I was pregnant), weaves, wigs, and cornrows. Everything I looked at would cost me a lot of money to get and maintain! My husband and I are both teachers and our salary can't support me becoming a salon addict. I also wasn't willing to give up my Saturdays to sit in a hair salon. My time with my son is very precious to me and I protect my family time fiercely!
So, I had happened to come across some natural hair blogs and saw some lovely ladies rocking some seriously kinky, curly, coily hair. I mean they not only wore cute hair styles, but they rocked it! I fell in love with curls and started thinking, hey maybe I could do that?
I started reading and researching and found out that a VERY LARGE community of black women are deciding to go against society norms and not just wear nappy hair, but celebrate nappy hair!
May 20, 2011 I decided that I would officially start my transition. My husband kissed me and said "Finally, thank you!". He never understood why I relaxed my hair. He told me that he wanted me to go natural because he" loves" the way kinky hair looks.
For 30 years of my life I had relaxed hair because I was told straight was prettier and easier to manage. My mother relaxed my hair when I was 5 years old and I never questioned relaxing my hair. Why would I? My grandmother relaxed her hair. My aunts and cousins relaxed their hair. This was normal and if I went too long between the relaxers I was called "nappy headed" by my nappy headed brothers.
Now I proudly wear my "nappy head" in public. In fact when I see other colored girls at school with the broken brittle relaxed hair I want to tell them "you don't have to live like that!".
August 8, 2011 I made an appointment to see my stylist and told her to "cut it all off". I was tired of trying to make my relaxed hair look curly and I just wanted to see what my curls would look like. So, off it all went and I have never regretted that decision. I feel so free and for the first time in my life I am actually looking at me! I was created in HIS image, so the least I can do is honor and respect the beauty HE has granted me in this short amount of time called my life!